Monday, September 3, 2018

A Life Well Thought Out

Things have been going really good lately. I feel like I am becoming who I am supposed to be. Most of my life right now is based on what makes me happy. I do what I want and when I want and am exploring possibilities of what I like and who I like.

I ran 5k this morning which I haven't done in a very long time. It felt hard but good to be out there doing it. I was doing 90 seconds running and 0 seconds walking the entire time and I am happy to say that I finished feeling good and refreshed and when I am done this post it will seriously be time for me to jump into the shower.

The last I posted I was getting ready to head out to Las Vegas with a couple of friends. I am glad to say it was a great trip and can;t wait to head there again for a long weekend.

 While there we did the zoomline down Freemont Street it was a very scary but exhilarating experience and I was happy that I shared it with great friends. Can't wait for our next trip together. Next time I promise not to cry.

Off to shower now guess I'm starting to feel a little gross.

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

Feeling Like A Badass Tuesday

First time in a while this is my second run this week and I feel amazing. I have fallen on the Badass wagon for a bit but now I am back with a vengeance. I have been feeling low and starting to self doubt myself too much lately and it has got to stop.

Not far and not fast but I am good with that. The fact that I got out there and did it means the world to me at this point. I need to keep my positive vibrations up and everything else will fall into place. I believe that with my heart and soul. I was meant to have a good life and have awesome things come to me. It is time for self doubt and negative self criticism to take a back seat or better yet get out of the damn car that is my life. I will continue running and working at having the most awesome life I possibly can. Life is too short to have it any other way.

I am looking for my new mantra that can work for both my running and life that will help raise the vibration that I want to put out into the world.

Any Suggestions for awesome mantras that work for both running and life?

Sunday, May 27, 2018

Sunday Runday

I was awake super early this morning so I decided it was a good time to go for a run. It felt good to be out there and I feel that I am even starting to get a little faster. Right now I am running on my own which is ok gives me time to think on the positive things going on in my life.

Things have been going really well and I am in a good place mentally and physically. This next week is going to be a buildup of excitement as I am going to Las Vegas next Sunday with a couple of friends. I am definitely looking forward to taking my first vacation with friends. It will also be my first time going to Las Vegas. I am even planning on taking my running gear with me and doing a couple runs on the strip in the early mornings. I want to get the most that I can out of this trip. We are going to be staying at the Flamingo on the strip.

It will be a blast. I will be taking as many pictures as I can while I am there as this is something that I plan on remembering for a long time.

Have you ever gone to Las Vegas? What was your favorite thing while there?

Wednesday, May 9, 2018

Weird Headspaces

It is really hard to put into words but sometime I feel like I am in a super weird headspace. I don't know if it my depression getting to me but I end up with feelings and worries that people don't like me. I am happy to report though that I am getting really good at nipping it in the bud.

I am not sure if it is the right thing to do or if I will start annoying people but it is what it is. I figure that questioning these weird thoughts will help me from sitting and stewing in my negative thoughts. So in advance to all my friends when I ask weird questions like if you are mad or upset with me even when there are no indicators of such. I apologize.

What tactics do you use to get rid of weird head spaces?

Friday, May 4, 2018

Self Doubt- When You Realize Depression Is Lurking

Over the last couple of weeks I have been worrying that my depression is lurking just underneath the surface. I have had plenty of self doubt and thoughts that I know I shouldn't be thinking. I am terrified that if this depression rears its ugly head it will be way worse than last time.

It is really hard to explain how it is when the depression takes over fighting the feelings of not being liked, feelings of loneliness and the thoughts that I will be alone for the rest of my life. It is not easy thinking any of these thoughts or having these feelings and not sharing them with anyone. I do my best at trying to keep myself busy so that the thoughts are put away at the back of my head and not in the forefront but the moment I just stop and sit or lay in bed at night they come clamoring to the front on my mind like they are in a race.

So in the meantime I will work at keeping busy and creating a life that I will be happy to live. I know it may seem like I am making this to be just a blip in the road but believe me there is no way this is a blip. It is something that I will probably have to deal with for the rest of my life all I can do is keep working to keep it under control and hopefully it will stop being at the forefront of my mind every time I am alone or in bed getting ready for sleep.

Does anyone having any tips that make it easier to keep the depression at bay?

Friday, April 6, 2018

Awesome Friday Vacation Day

Well it is Friday once again and I took the day as a vacation day. It has been a great day all around.
I went out with my daughter to Metrotown where we had lunch and did a bit of shopping. We went out that way as I was waiting to hear from a gentleman in regards to buying a Garmin 10 for the amazing price of $10.

After Metrotown we set off for home and then we tried the new to me Garmin out. It was wonderful and we had a great time. I love being able to spend time with my daughter and now that things are calmer in my life it makes it even that much more enjoyable. Looking forward to many more runs with Katie and also with Tanis my sister in law.

Did you have an awesome Friday?